Slowly, very slowly, Lara and I are adapting to our new life with Jax. Caring for an infant, a premature infant, is a challenge – much more difficult than I imagined.
While I’ve discussed the challenges of not having help if these were normal circumstances, it’s also a challenge for Lara and I dealing with ourselves. We don’t fight or anything like that, but we are tired people caring for a baby that doesn’t like us. Well okay, I’m sure he likes us but he is very, very demanding in the wee hours of the morning. We think that part of the reason he hates us is that he has gas, lots of natural gas. This makes him irritable and angry. He especially likes to tell us how angry between the hours of 10p and 4a.
Some suggest that the SNOO Bassinet may be a way for all of us to retain our sanity. According to the website, the $1,500 SNOO detects your baby’s cries and automatically responds by rocking them gently to the same white noise and motion they loved before birth. It has an app that allows you to control the bassinet from the comfort of some place else. It may also sweep your floors, wash your clothes and mow your lawn. While we could spend an obscene amount on something that might work, because the interwebs said so, we are hoping that this too will pass.
That said, we are told that it’ll get better. In those seconds get sleep we dream of a time when he has his vaccinations, COVID is pushed background, maybe then we can have something similar to a normal life – whatever that is. It’s hard to see or even dream of that time from this perspective but, well, we have no choice.
That all said, how about we just look at Jax today?
Thanks for your help.
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Well, he is absolutely precious!
Honestly, I don’t know that my life with a newborn prepandemic was anything to write home about. It was absolute awfulness times a million. I think most people would say the same thing? Everyone has their own experience though…I just hated it.
That said, it really does get better. And it gets worse sometimes, in totally different ways, and then it gets better.
When you finally realize that wait, this little one is forever and I’m not the old me anymore, it gets better in new and amazing ways.
I’ve never loved anyone more yet wanted to run away from someone so badly at the same time.
18 months in…I’m finally getting a sense of myself again. Be kind to yourselves, the light will come!
Ps, I wasn’t a snoo’er but I know it’s all the rage and I know you can get used ones.
I know have a new baby is tough. I’ll be fully vaccinated by the end of the month and happy to come take a shift or two of baby care, if that would be helpful.
Love,
Molly
I have no baby. My hormone levels tell me I will never have a baby. I will gladly pay for a couple months of SNOO rental so you ALL can sleep. I would like to help.